It has been a while since my last post that is when I had just arrived in Krakow from Malaysia.
Indeed I left home filled with excitements, hopes and feeling of success. There is really nothing I could say I have not had left undone back home before I leave. For example set foot on every states in Malaysia including the summit of Mount Kinabalu, had oversea vacation to Vietnam with my parents, savouring many of my favourite food back home,precious time with friends and family, tonnes of good and touching farewell wishes and lots of friends and family sending me off the airport but there is just only one thing,just only one.
My dearest grandma,Mdm Lim Tuan Ha, was ill and had been on the bed for more than 6 months before she peacefully leave behind her children, grandchildren, great-grandchildren, friends and relatives just today morning Malaysian time. I had expected that I couldn't send her off in her last departure. This is the only thing that I had to heavy-heartedly left behind.
It is indeed a great loss to me but this loss at least comes with an ironic sense of relieve and contentment. It would be a greater suffering for her to be in her state of illness longer. I don't wish to see which the worst which had happened to my grandfather before he passed away few years ago to her also. It is indeed the most painful thing to experience by closest family.
She had been living with me for years ever since I was born. My grandmother is a really admirable one as her capability of running the family business during her younger days and building the family tree to a highly sturdy one...capable in all required skill as a housewive needed from babysitting, sewing, cooking to even ...and what's more...her wits and guts of course. Not many people expect her as a chinese old lady to speak Malay, English besides all those major Chinese dialects so fluently...Just too much to tell for those experiences I had went through with her all these years. I will always miss her.
As a devoted Christian, she spend her life praising the Lord from her younger days till the day she can't lift herself up to go to church. She lends her arm to those who needs without second thoughts.
But I would really say I'm sorry because I had sometimes make you angry and at times make you annoyed. Thank you for all your wishes all these years before you go to bed in hoping your this grandson will be successful in everything. Thank you for all your teachings in everything and those had really brought me through all the way to where I am now. I promise you that I will strive and be able to become a successful doctor. I am really proud to have you as my Grandma and you will always be remembered in your this grandson's heart. Sorry for not be able to be by your side during your last moment. But I am always glad that you will never forget me.
Love you Grandma. May you rest in peace.
